aneez :)

2010-06-19T18:05:00.007+08:00

16 June 2010

had my taekwondo training as usual on every wednesday, i was

damn late as it was raining heavily, upon reaching school i was

soaking wet from neck to toe, training was awesome, did a few

patterns and had a sparring sessions, the best part of all during

training but this time, i was injured. on my first match, it was

with a girl, a girl who was just like me, sporty and rough, we had

our kicks non-stop then bang! we hit on each other shin which i

had a bruise while playing skateboard a few days ago, damn !!

so i tried to hide the pain especially from coach but for my next

match, i was told to spar with a fat tall big guy and of course he

had a stronger kicks than me, while sparring, coach asked me to

not go away from him and counter-attack him whenever i can but

once again bang! we hit on each other shin which was on the same

shin i was hit on my first match, end of match, started to feel the

pain, looks a little swollen and then it spread to my upper feet !!

despite the injuries, sparring is always my best 'subject' in taekwondo

not to forget, nur fatihah and the rest ganged up to do a belated suprise

birthday for me, damn i totally forgot about the belated celebration, they

did told me about it but a week later i forgot all about it and then they

went.."SUPRISE" with a cake and a birthday song in public, friends, please

do no, DO NOT give me any suprises, i dont quite like it because i dont

know how am i going to react to it but then i'm touched on what they did

check out my photography tumblr whenever you free okay friends :D

http://ahhniece-graphy.tumblr.com/

2010-06-10T12:34:00.006+08:00

8 June 2010

the day i turned 20th years old, morning met up with nur

fatihah to drop by our private school at city hall, we had

our own documents to be settled, before heading there,

we dropped by J.CO donuts for brunch, thanks nur fatihah

for the donut and ice choclated treat, thanks for making

me smile too especially on my special day, love you always

after done with our school documents, we went our separate

ways, i went off to meet michelle at tampines for IKEA thingy,

had our lunch and walked around the IKEA, then shuttle bus to

bedok and home sweet home back to jurong, thank you michelle

for asking me out, i had fun, shall meet you soon okay, love you

little brother suprised me with a mini cake, he told me he did

not eat in school just to buy me a cake, i'm so freaking touched

as for the rest of you, thank you so much for the birthday wishes

2010-06-06T17:42:00.005+08:00

come on la be mature, i've done my part but

you dont seem to bother about it, well for your

info i am sorry part was for mum's sake so if

you cant accept my apologies, so be it, whatever

when i was there, making the first move to say

i was sorry, you dont even bother to play a part

in it too, instead you were being sacarstic, thanks

alot old man, dont know if i was right to give in to you,

i'm still sure i was not 100% wrong in that situation,

you were out of control, wont listen to anyone of us

so blame your ego-ness, i had enough of your attitude,

so you wont care much about my life anymore, so be it.

i'm so not okay

)':

2010-06-06T11:41:00.001+08:00

i just want everything to end fast.

guess i shall make the first move so

that i can get over it fast and get my

life back, i'm so not okay. . . . . . . .

2010-06-03T13:42:00.004+08:00

it's been 4 days 3 nights and still there is no

change of situation, everyone in the family is not

talking, we somehow prefer to be mute and deaf

rather than talk things out, this time the problem

is kinda serious, damn serious that only dad can

end this serious problem but sadly the problem now

is dad himself while the rest of us have no choice but to

wait and wait every single day, when is it going to end?

never feel this scared living in my own house, trying

not to collide with someone i'm trying to avoid in this

home, it's kinda tough but the feeling of fear is there,

life isnt the same anymore for my family & myself, sigh

every night, i cried myself to sleep, hoping not to see the

sun the next day, just want to sleep and never wakes up,

believe me, happy family isnt always in my dictionary, hate

seeing any family being happy together, the feeling of envy

is there too, you always find me so cheerful and making you

laugh each time we meet but behind closed doors, i'm a very

different person who you wont want to get to know as a friend

My heart is broken.

All my scars are open.

Tell them what i hoped would be impossible.

And now when all is gone, there is nothing to say )’:

2010-06-02T13:02:00.003+08:00

i shall take back my words on my previous post

about me being a lucky daughter in the family,

being lucky does not last that long, 2 days ago

i really had a big fight with dad, never in my 19yrs

of life, i really stand up for little brother, after

that incident, i just cant stop asking myself if it was

a big mistakes to really get involved in the fight or

a big sacrifice for me as i lost my only chance to get

into a private school, i hope dad was joking about

it despite i made him so freaking mad, so mad he

decided to wash his hands off my affairs, this is a

very serious matter, trust me, i shall not elaborate about

what really happened to my family and me 2 days ago

just that i aint that lucky anymore, i'm lost, nowhere

to go except praying hard dad will come to his sense

and forgive what i had done and what he had done too

friends, there is no way you can contact me for the time

being, my hp was being confiscated by dad, no using of

computer too, so that means you wont see me online for

this few days,months? only way to contact me is by my house

how am i able to update this? glad dad did not take away

this laptop so i stole people's wireless account and make use

of it, so i guess friends, you can either leave me a facebook

message and best leave your number so that i can contact you

if im unable to get into people's wireless, i shall ask my gf to

i try my best to reply your messages as soon as possible okay

)':

2010-05-31T13:20:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, the simplest advice that we give to others

to follow your heart, to let go because its no longer worth it

anymore is the hardest for us to follow.

2010-05-30T20:28:00.004+08:00

been jobless and school-less for almost 2months plus,

trust me, it sucks when you are doing the same thing

almost the same thing everyday, sleep,eat & tv-ing !

for the last 2 months plus, been persuading dad that i

want to continue to study in private school since the

polytechnics rejected me after submitting appeal letter

to them, wondered if they do read my appeal letter,

well what can you expect, i bet they received many such

appeal letter, so dont think they have time to really

read through all of them right, oh whatever, it's over

on the brighter note, dad has agreed to enrol me in a

private school, i can say i'm lucky to be the only daughter

in this family, honestly dad spoiled me too much, he

seldom say no to my request, so it's confirmed i will start

school in july, taking the same course i took back in ITE

on other hand, i'm officially involved in the youth olympic

games 2010, signed up for the volunteer as photographer

since march 2010 if i'm not wrong, thanks to latep for pulling

me in this volunteer work as a photographer, we both have

the same passion on photography so why not take part in it

sadly, this youth olympic games happens on the august and

i have school on that month, no public holidays for private

school so i wondered if my lecturers are able to let me take

a few days off from school but at the same time, i will be

left behind in my studies, so here comes my dilemma, help !

basically that is my life now

2010-05-18T15:14:00.000+08:00

2010-03-25T11:09:00.002+08:00

sorry for not been updating my blog, been busy with work lately

i'll be using tumblr more often than blogger, so check out my

tumblr page and tag tag tag okay people, see ya around (:

2010-03-13T12:50:00.004+08:00

ALEX LAMBERT

MY CUTE SHY BOY WAS OUT FROM AMERICAN IDOL

UNBELIEVEABLE AND SHOCKING

Everybody knows but nobody really knows

2010-03-05T14:59:00.003+08:00

I know i can be a bitch.

But i don't want to be like that.

I need your help so i wont be like that anymore.

I know i can be annoying.

But you a good friend and i dont want to lose you.

But if you don't wanna be friends please just tell me.

That way i know you mean it for real.

Although i don't want you to say it and really mean it.

Because i wont be able to accept it.

You dont know how much i miss the days.

When we all had crappy track phones and felt like the hottest shit alive.

We didnt let anything get between us because back then,

there wasnt drama.

It was just us, being best friends, and nothing stopped us,

from just being happy.

i'll take that blame eventhough the blame's on you.

2010-02-27T20:19:00.003+08:00

I believe-

that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I believe-

that no matter how good a friend is,

they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I believe-

that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.

Same goes for true love.

I believe-

that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I believe-

that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I believe-

that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.

It may be the last time you see them.

I believe- that you can keep going long after you can't.

I believe-

that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I believe-

that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I believe-

that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first,

the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I believe-

that heroes are the people who do what has to be done

when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I believe-

that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I believe-

that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I believe-

that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down,

will be the ones to help you get back up.

I believe-

that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,

but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I believe-

that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them

to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I believe-

that maturity has more to do with what types of

experiences you've had and what you've learned from them

and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I believe-

that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.

Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I believe-

that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I believe-

that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,

but we are responsible for who we become.

I believe-

that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other

And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I believe-

that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret.

It could change your life forever.

I believe- that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally. different.

I believe-

that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I believe- that even when you think you have no more to give,

when a friend cries out to you you will find the strength to help.

I believe-

that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I believe-

that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

by Unknown

2010-02-25T15:25:00.001+08:00

Wanting,

lusting,

to be held,

to be loved,

to feel warmth,

to feel your beating heart.

Wanting to be sheltered from the cold,

heartless winds.

Falling into invisible arms;

into an abyss of love.

Wishing,hoping,that my desires will be filled;

my desires of loving warmth.

Wanting to be held,

comforted,

loved.

Dreaming of passionate embraces,

of tender kisses,

loving words,

romantic nights.

Waiting for undying love.

2010-02-25T15:23:00.003+08:00

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl

It feeds on loneliness and creates a void

Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture

A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here

The little one has thrown in the towel today

Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul

It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman

In this girl, this child where hollows have bred

A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes

And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,

Leaving nothing considered worthy remains

Destined to walk through life less ordinary

Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

2010-02-23T21:24:00.003+08:00

Time, can you reverse back those

happy moments and freeze it ?

2010-02-19T20:41:00.001+08:00

I'm running out of breath

I can't believe its so hard to breath

My hearts pounding in my chest

As I wonder if IT found me

I hide under the covers and pretend I'm invisible

Then I turn around and IT is still there

I scream and pray IT would just go away

I'm running and running but IT is right behind me

I stop running and decide to face my fears

Once and for all

As I stand face to face to what has caused me

So much misery and pain

I stop

I look deeper and deeper into IT's

I realize that IT is me.

2010-02-19T20:15:00.003+08:00

Rain . . .

Softly falling down . . .

each drop a symphony of sound . . .

as it hits the tin roof . . .

tap . . . tap . . . tap.

It can sound just like a sad song with a slow beat . . .

the kind that makes you daydream . . .

and feel sad and sigh . . .

as you think of what might of been or could be in your life.

Or maybe it is a happy song that brings back sweet memories . . .

tender thoughts and special smiles . . .

thinking of someone who makes your heart beat faster . . .

and your laughter ring with happiness and joy.

Or maybe it is a love song . . .

with sweet and soft lyrics . . .

tender and romantic and sensual . . .

that makes you think of dancing in the rain.

Only you can decide which song . . .

is the one you are hearing . . .

which music soothes your soul . . .

and which song you want to sing along with.

Sometimes, you have to choose a song . . .

and the choosing isn't easy.

2010-02-13T19:52:00.009+08:00

ICE CREAM DAY!

Hanis

Fadilah

Rafidah

Mamat

Suhaila

Fatihah

Saiful - The Artist

Raf + Anis = Cousin

Fad + Su = Cousin

Cookies & Cream Tub $9

Cookies & Cream Single Scoop

Island Creamery

Serene Centre ( Farrer Road )

2010-02-09T20:36:00.000+08:00

HTC Flash Mob Dance Raffles Place (Singapore)

MUST WATCH. AWESOME SINGAPOREANS!

2010-02-03T13:16:00.003+08:00

31 January 2010

in the morning, headed to redhill for taekwondo training,

upon reaching, we entered a one way road, to make our

life easier, we rode on the pavement so that we wont hav

to do a u-turn, to my suprised, a resident saw it and called the

police, thanks to the boys, gilagf and i was not questioned

at 2pm, received a message from school saying the school

was on fire, staffroom in ITE Dover was severely damaged

in big fire, i was shocked but at the same time, excited as

it's every kid's dream to have their school on fire so there

will be no school, HAHAHA! so check out the photo below !

02 February 2010

resumed school after was given a one day off due to the

fire outbreak on sunday, i was shocked as i entered the

school, it was badly damaged and it reminded me of the

time my kitchen caught fire, it was terrified okay, worst

part, the IT department block was the one that was badly

damaged so that means, IT students are the ones who are

suffering, no computer, no network, no electricty and such

went jogging with suhaila in the afternoon, oh my god,

i took 3 mins just to jog 1 round, sesungguhnya aku no

more stamina, i guess i have to jog once a week to get

back my sports lifestyle, i missed those days i used to

be in the track and field team, masuk ITE je, makan je

lebih, jogging, excercise dah tak peduli, haiyo hanis !!!

~~what if he falls for you instead?~~

2010-01-24T19:55:00.005+08:00

Doing everything that I believe in

Going by the rules that I've been taught

More understanding of what's around me

And protected from the walls of love

All that you see is me

And all I truly believe

That I was born to try

I've learned to love

Be understanding

And believe in life

But you've got to make choices

Be wrong or right

Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

No point in talking what you should have been

And regretting the things that went on

Life's full of mistakes, destinies and fate

Remove the clouds look at the bigger picture

And all that you see is me

And all I truly believe

That I was born to try

I've learned to love

Be understanding

And believe in life

But you've got to make choices

Be wrong or right

Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

All that you see is me

All I truly believe

All that you see is me

And all I truly believe

That I was born to try

I've learned to love

Be understanding

And believe in life

But you've got to make choices

Be wrong or right

Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

Now you have

But you've got to make choices

Be wrong or right

Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

~~was i really born to try and most importantly stay strong?~~

2010-01-21T20:22:00.003+08:00

bowling session with the girls were awesome,

despite my injured right arm, i was the winner

for the both games, gereks, overall it was fun

and funny, had BK for our early dinner, kenyang.

tomorrow will be having my first practical

assignment, wish me all the best okay friends

and i'm glad teacher extended the dateline

till saturday for the cisco online assessments

whole body is aching, had my napfa test, 5 stations

on tuesday, everything went well except that i

had a bad fall while doing my shuttle run but still

managed to get an A grade, syabas! injured my right

arm, wednesday taekwondo training was great but

tired, did alot of kicking, speed kicking, today had

my 2.4km, super duper tiring and i failed it, sigh !!

~~what's left of me ?~~

2010-01-16T20:09:00.005+08:00

MY SATURDAY

11AM-1PM

POOL SESSIONS WITH COUSINS

BEAUTY WORLD CENTRE

CENTURY POOL AND SNOOKER

NUR FATIHAH, GET WELL SOON OKAY!

2010-01-14T21:22:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAFIZ, LITTLE BROTHER !!

2010-01-11T20:11:00.003+08:00

WITHOUT YOU ALL, NO SURPISE FOR BDAE BOY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNAFI

2010-01-05T19:37:00.004+08:00

first day of school was wet, it was raining heavily

but still i rode to school, upon reaching school the

boys as always were late, ended up we were one

hour late for class, syabas! brunch with kecohrables

and went to shirley mah salon for a haircut, nice

today will be my second day of school and i'm so

freaking tired, sigh, school starts at 8am everyday

except wednesday, no school, sape tak penat kan

but today lesson was okay okay, average, managed

to finish up the assignments given with the help of

friends, thanks boys, but i need to recap what i've

learnt in 2008, oh boy, i need help, networking !!!

waited for kecohrables to finish school and raced

back home with gilagf, well she wins the race !!!

oh great tomorrow no school for me, shall wake up

late afternoon and off to schoo for taekwondo !!

~~I had a special feeling about you~~

2010-01-03T20:22:00.004+08:00

02 January 2009

planned to go to pulau ubin was cancelled as one of

my cousin cant cycled so we proceed to sentosa for

our outing, our first stop was sentosa 4D-Max, mum

was afraid after we told her what was 4D-Max all

about, and upon reaching the room, mum was like,

do they have seat belts? oh mum, you are so funny

after proceed to palawan beach, had our brunch and

went for a swim, went to the bridge to have our photo

taking sessions, thanks to cousin lysa for being our

photographer of the day since you aint want to go

for a swim with us, but thanks for the great photos

went for a walk around sentosa and dad was like, take

a photo here, take a photo there and so on, he was so

excited okay and kecoh, dont you agree cousin? took a

monorail back to vivocity and believe it or not, parents

was shocked when they entered the sky park, they dont

even know it even exists, so we decided to have our

dinner on the sky park, enjoying the breeze that dad

nearly went to sleep, not to forget saiful and gilagf was

there to join us for dinner, thank you so much friends (:

all i gotta say, i'm loving my day yesterday because dad

wasnt being himself like he always did whenever we

went out, he always wants to hurry back home and

never want to join the fun but yesterday it was different

thank you dad, maybe this year, u decided to change

2009-12-31T20:31:00.004+08:00

as i was planning to just slack at home today, dad

already made a plan yesterday to drop by town to

use up his Takashimaya vouchers, since it's been a

long time, we drop by town area, we kinda lost,

went to levis store located at ngee ann city, dad

tried the jeans and he loved it but too bad they

dont accept the vouchers because we were not

at the right place, it should be at takashimaya !!!

dad was kinda disappointed but lucky there's levis store

in takashimaya so he bought a jean for himself, no more

vouchers left, well he's happy, we are happy, bus-ed to

douby ghaut to have lunch at Ernie, it's at basement, then

train-ed to bugis to look for school bags, upon reaching

bugis, dad took the wrong exit and had to walk the long

way to bugis street, dah la aku ada blisters, sakit tau !!

since there's no nice bag in bugis street and we had

travelled a long way, i aint want to go home empty

handed, so i bought a watch, thanks to mum, but still

i was sad that dad did not allow me to buy an ipod touch

on the brighter note, dad changed my handphone line to

the unlimited SMS, sesungguhnya aku gembira sekali !!

2009 is going to end in a few hours, all i can say is i will

never regret anything that made me smile & to those who

had been there for me, thank you soo much, not to forget

God Almighty that until now i'm still able to see the world

new year resolution is to have a better life, a job (:

~~or can i have you for my new year resolution?~~

2009-12-30T20:17:00.014+08:00

29 december 2009

picnic in the afternoon

gathering after dinner

30 december 2009

so many things happened today, bad and good, had

my taekwondo training, today training was much fun

than last week, but painful, well basically i was one

of the victim for coach's guinea pig for demonstrating

his defensive techniques, it was great actually, hehe

finally had a taste of my favourite chicken cutlet at

school cafe after 2 months of not going to school 'coz

of industrial attachment, dengan penuh confident, i

tightly squeezed the chilli botol onto my plate but . . .

gilagf discovered it was tomato, not chilli sauce, urgh

next, i was siting on gilagf's ybr and suddenly there's a

'visitor', a cockroach came visit to her front tyre!!!!!

i was praying hard, oh please dont spread your wings

and fly to my X1 which is just 2 feet away, geli doh !

and and, i'm so going to kill the boy who did this to my

X1, okay killing is a crime, so i guess i just do a sidekick

to this particular guy, gilagf, tell him to watch out !!!!

*see the side mirrors facing outwards*

the worst part was, gilagf was too engrossed with her

riding, that she felt so happy following a long lorry and

ended up, she missed the only way back home, so i had

no choice but to follow her and make a u-turn, kecoh pe

those were the bad things happend today, the good ones

are those i had while i slacked wth gilagf at macdonald..

so many things to say so i save it for other days okay (:

~~seriously, do i stand a chance?~~

2009-12-28T20:14:00.003+08:00

accompanied gilagf to look for jobs at JP, sadly

there aint any jobs available at the moment, so

had lunch at kentucky fried chicken, ordered a

zinger student meal and why do they have to ask

me to show my student pass, dont i look like one?

and when i show it, they dont even look at it !!

so since there's no jobs available, we decided to

do some shopping, well it was gilagf that did the

most shopping but i want that ring, pity no size !!

Singapore Idol 2009. Congratulations

Elena Rose

mum asked her if she wants to go swimming with us

this holiday, so elena asked her dad for permission,

but her dad wont allowed, so she replied, if you say

no, i'll still go, all her dad did was laughed at her !!

~~I'm afraid that one day, I'll be nothing~~

~~more than an old school memory to you~~

2009-12-27T20:50:00.004+08:00

26 december 2009

i was planning to rot at home the whole day as

i've been going out almost everyday, yes every

single day, it's tiring but fun, so decided to have

dinner with aunts, grandma and cousins while my

parents had to attend to a function, and believe

me i was so freaking scared to pillion my brother

on his DRZ, he was not riding that fast, just that

i was afraid i will fall off from the back, HAHAHA

bowling sessions at CSC Bukit Batok, it's been a

really long time we had bowling sessions together

it was fun and funny, we had 3 game of bowling

and ended our last game at 0010hrs, sungguh best

she just wont let go of the barney when we did not

give her $1 for the barney ride, she's a barney lover

2009-12-23T20:14:00.003+08:00

taekwondo training was pathetic today,

only eight people turned up for training

training was boring, did nothing except

learning our basic kick and pattern, sigh

after training, lunch with gilagf at cheese

prata shop, rushed to westmall to watch

the 2pm avatar movie but it was sold out

so bought the 2.30pm movie, i seriously

did not want to watch that movie at all but

to my suprise, oh my god, it was awesome

it was funny, thrilling and sad, how i wish

i can have my own avatar and the best part

of the movie was the night-life of avatar, it

was beautiful with glowing lights, watch it ok

~~Do you feel what I feel?~~

2009-12-16T20:24:00.003+08:00

15 december 2009

i'm so glad mum asked me out to look for christmas

gifts for the toddlers she looks after, before that

had lunch with cousins and aunts at ayam penyet RIA

at Jurong Point, please dont try their ice milo !!

kiddy palace for christmas gifts, it was easier looking

for a kid's gift and i bought myself a stitch keychain !!

mum was happy while buying those christmas gifts !!

lil brother slept over his friend's house and i was alone

at night, had trouble sleeping because of the muscle

cramps, had to get up and stretch myself, not liking it

16 december 2009

met up with gila gf nur fatihah for taekwondo training,

i'm so missing the trainings and the cliques, i just loves

being with them because i'm being myself, no faking it

met up with saiful who is going off for his NS soon next

year, oh i'm so going to miss you, dude! suhaila tagged

along, lunch at banquet then slacked at starbucks!! nikon

was there with us, so snap snap, camwhored and spent

$8 on arcade games, sesungguhnya kita tak ada kerja !!

and it's sad that i'm not suitable for the job because of

the rotating shifts, sigh.sigh.sigh.sigh.sigh.sigh.sigh.sigh

and gila gf if you reading this, i love you soo very much

~~watching you from the back has become a habit to me~~

2009-12-14T20:27:00.004+08:00

it's the first day of school holidays, the

feeling of not waking up early and rush

to work which is way far than your home

is fantastic, finally the holidays are here

for this week, there will be a 2 days 1 night

chalet but i have not yet tell parents about

it, sesungguhnya aku tak look forward for it

asked suhaila along for gym session and thank

god she was able to make it, and and she felt

so scared pillion-ing me, suhaila oi, aku ride at

the speed of 50km/h je seh, HAHAHA, takut pe?

best part was ice cream after workout, hehe (:

still waiting for the company's phone number

from faezah, hoping i can get the job soon !!

first priority will be my X1, sigh, $$$$$$$$$$$$

they always say that a heart is not a home

without the one who gets you through the storm

2009-12-11T22:00:00.003+08:00

FINALLY IT'S OVER

this morning i was dancing to the song watcha say by

jason derulo as today marks the end of attachment !!

i even planned to ride slowly to work because i knew

danial will be late, as aways but to my suprise there

were no traffic jam at PIE this morning, and and worst

part it was 8.53am, when i past the ERP gantry, for your

information, ERP ends at 8.55am, damn, i was fast !!

5.55pm, out of sudden, danial smiled and laughed, i can

see he was freaking happy, best part we received our

final payout, yeahoo, so goodbye toa payoh, hello dover

dinner with only parents at mr teh tarik, sometimes it feel

so great to be the only child, dont ask me why, it is so

unexplain-able, oh whatever okay, so holidays are here,

i'm so going to plan my holiday schedules, jogging is a must

sigh

2009-12-10T20:50:00.003+08:00

09 december 2009

work was okay, the same i should said, so what i

did was movie marathon on my laptop since they

blocked facebook, youtube, twitter access, ass !!

was pissed off during lunch, ordered prata and it

came 15 minutes later but was glad the prata was

crispy and delicious, i'm so loving it okay, hohoho

decided to drop by school after work, met up with

my gila gf for dinner, had kentucky fried chicken &

ordered our usual student meal, finger licking good !

lysa cousin went to vietnam at 5am for CIP work

10 december 2009

movie marathon as usual at work, burger king for

lunch, yummy and we only discovered the location of

old chang kee in toa payoh only today, oh great,we

had been looking for it since we started our attachment

saw an accident today right before my eyes while i was

on my way back from work, heard a loud bang and there

it goes, two victims flying off the bike, i'm so terrified

can someone send me to work tomorrow, i dont want to

ride please and and tomorrow will be the last day of

attachment, i'm so ex ex ex ex ex ex ex excited okay !

i know what i did wasnt clever and

i screwed that little chance i had

2009-12-06T20:15:00.002+08:00

5 more days to go

2009-12-04T20:34:00.004+08:00

finally it's friday, 5 more days without counting

the weekends, oh my god, i'm so excited okay

seriously cant wait to finish my attachment !!!

honestly, the colleagues are friendly, at times

they seem like those stepsisters/stepmother

in the story cinderella ella ella eh eh, HAHAHA

but was glad, they helped out with our logbook,

they dont care what we wrote, they are more

concerned about our grades, was glad today till

we end our attachment, supervisor decided to

give us a minor work, email-monitoring, had to

wait for an email from Hong Kong, replied to a

user in India, we acted as a middle man and the

job is kinda tiring, each reply took more than

2 hours okay, i ended up sleeping while waiting

2009-12-02T20:21:00.006+08:00

21 november 2009

marina.penisular.orchard.al-azhar

those are the places i went with

cousins and aunt, had a good time

22 november 2009

Causeway Point - Woodlands

NATIONAL PUSHCART CHALLENGE 2009
ENTREPENEURSHIP COMPETITION

Jurongville was the champion. Congrats

27 november 2009

Selamat Hari Raya Haji

as always, spent our hari raya haji at

grandma's crib, everyone was there

but this year wasnt that lively due to

some reasons, everything is a mess

28 november 2009

bike inspection at STA, boon lay with dad,

spent 5 hours of my saturday with gila gf,

all i did was treat her within that 5 hours!

macdonald breakfast, double chocolate frappe,

mamee big packet from Giant, best kan? haha

29 november 2009

singapore flyer with family and cousins (:

fun.fun.fun.fun.fun.fun

pictures will upload soon okay

2009-12-02T18:16:00.011+08:00

will be back tonight to blog.

stay tuned.

2009-11-25T20:56:00.005+08:00

Its been quite a while now

Since we shared stories

And time is slowly passing me by

And it's driving me insane

Its weird to think that two people

Who were so close like sisters

Could turn out not even on speaking terms

To be like we promised never.

And I sit back and think a lot

That was the reason i've been missing

And pretended everything was fine.

And yes I feel like a loser

More like coward, running away from it

Worst, blaming everyone

I fell in love with you as a friend

You were my girl, my sister, my everything

I thought what we had would never end.

And then one day it just stops

We dont contact like we used to

Wondering if i'm doing the right thing

You tried hard to save our friendship

But you should know me better, stubborn

Never for once forget about the great times we've had

The crazy and silly things we did

Trying to put this time behind me

Trying so hard not to blame

But truth is i do

I blame you or was it just me

You asked long ago if there was issues

I claimed nothing to say

Because if i spoke of how i felt

I'm scared that everything will change

I should sort out our friendship

That something had to be rearranged

You must be tired of asking, wondering and questioning

Tip toeing around the right thing to say

Truth is you were a friend,

The way a best friend should be

I hope you will not give up on me

I want the old us back

I miss you soo much

the least you can do is lie to me

that everything will be okay

2009-11-24T19:59:00.005+08:00

Happy

You might feel the pain

Don’t you love in vain’cause love won’t set you free

I can’t stand by the side

And watch this life pass me by

So unhappy But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?

So what it I break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge,

My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place I wanna hear my sound

Don’t care about all the pain in front of me

I just trying to be happy I just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly

Just can’t let go

Just trying to play my role

Slowly disappear

But all these days

They feel like they’re they’re same

Just different faces Different place

Get me out of here I can’t stand by the side

Ooh, no

And watch this life pass me by

Pass me by

So what if it hurts me?

So what if I break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge?

My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place

I wanna hear my sound

Don’t care about all the pain in front of me

I’m just trying to be happy

Oh, happy Oh

So when it turns that I can see???

This rope??

Victim??

Don’t say anything

So what if it hurts me?

So what if I break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge?

My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place

I wanna hear my sound

Don’t care about all the pain in front of me

I just wanna be happy

Happy

I just wanna be

Happy.

2009-11-20T20:25:00.004+08:00

thanks to the accident i had, i got my llife

back for three days, going to work for only

2 days this week, it feels so great and free

ever since the attachment took over my

life there are so many things i miss doing

taking the same route to school everyday,

skip in between lessons and the only place

you can find me is at the school hall playin'

ping pong, those frequent meet-up outside

the girl's toilet when we were supposed to

be in class studying, school food especially

cafeteria cheap western food, after school

hangouts especially with my kecohrables !!

that's school for me & list goes on (:

lastly i miss this big bully cousin of mine

2009-11-19T20:47:00.008+08:00

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I

why do i have to try so hard?

2009-11-15T21:03:00.003+08:00

14 november 2009

elana's 4th advance birthday

personal favourite boy i met at the bdae party

15 november 2009

met up with the boy who i chatted at alamak chatroom,

and because of him, i was late in meeting someone, so i

sped and then i hit a car, the woman told me she did give

a left signal but i dont think so, even the rider behind me

agreed with me, so since it was my 1st road accident, i

did not ask for compensation or whatever, but the woman

was kind enough to give me plaster, okay la tu, HAHAHA!

believe it or not, after the accident, i still proceed to

accompany my friend to buy his helmet near sim lim square

although my x1 was not in a good condition, right after that

off to meet my gila gf to some chit-chat sessions, kecoh doh

oh great, i'm in pain. sigh

2009-11-12T21:08:00.006+08:00

11 november 2009

all i could remember was danial and i was soaking

wet in the rain, it was the time we were having

our lunch and there the rain came down, heavily

we had no choice but to just ride in the rain as we

we buying lunch for one of our colleagues, upon

reaching office, we could not do anything to dry

ourselves so imagine sitting in an aircon-ditioner

room, soaking wet for about 4 straight hours !!!!

met up with the usual cliques after work and sorry

i wasnt in my best mood plus i had a fever out of

sudden due to the raining and not drying myself up

12 november 2009

cough, headache & fever but still came for work, as

usual did nothing but we managed to find another

malay/indian stalls nearby our office and because of

danial, i cant have my waffle, there goes my craving

met up with khai and annafi, like finally i get to meet

khai, well i missed him since i started my attachment

kawan-kawan, jangan jealous okay, i miss you all too la

and sadly my clutch cable putus AGAIN, so no more

riding to work tomorrow, thanks alot X1, u making

my life so miserable right now, dont friend you uh !

wonder if i'll be alone tomorrow at work, danial is

taking a day off tomorrow for his investiture thingy

oh danial, please dont leave me alone at work, sigh

2009-11-10T21:32:00.006+08:00

Simon Barker As Patrick Jane ; The Mentalist

i feel so lost out of sudden, worst part i dont

feel like seeing anyone of you, feelings suck

but i'll be able to see that man tonight, on TV

dont worry, i'll be okay

2009-11-09T11:28:00.004+08:00

07 november 2009

zoo outing with just cousins, no adults, it felt so

awesome okay, without having someone to nag

at you, doing things that it's not allow etc, HAHA

cousin treated us all the whole day, he paid for

everything, yes everything! it does not start well

as it began to rain so decided to take a break &

have our light breakfast, fyi we bought finger food

it started to stop as soon as the splash show was up,

best part of the show was the sealion, he was well

trained and funny okay, pity did not manage to video

the whole actions, after covering the whole zoo, we

had KFC for dinner plus ben & jerry for dessert, nice

night time, off to funan and penisular to look for camera

lenses, thanks to cousin who paid everything during our

zoo outing, that now i have 2-in-1 lense for my D3000!!

psst, he paid for me first & parents aint know about it !!!

8 november 2009

attended cousin's wedding at bukit batok, it was not fun

like the previous cousin's wedding but once again i learnt

something from the photographer, well he was dad's old

friend and he was willing to teach me, thanks uncle, haha

and not only that, one of my relatives, lent me his built

in flash for the wedding photography, it was okay, the

pictures turned out well, wonder should i buy myself a

cheap built in flash for the time being? shall ask dad for

it since he kept saying that built in flash is a must ! HAHA

i cant stop thinking about you

2009-11-06T20:34:00.004+08:00

nasi lemak made my morning so kenyang, ok lame

it was delicious okay, it's been a long time i had

nasi lemak packed with daun pisang, so was glad

the broadband was not taken away by them, so we

did our own stuffs as always but still we were bored

after lunch, i'm glad gila gf called me up, at least

i have someone to entertain me rather than staring

at my laptop, doing nothing, soon after, our teacher

in charge, mr harold gan came over to do some spot

check & it was hilarious because we somehow told

him white lies, if you people have been reading my

blog, ever since we start our attachment, we were

not given a proper job instead we were facebook-ing

after work, off to CCA branch for my lil brother's

drum major passing out parade, was on time but i

cant seem to take good shots today, pissed off sia

psst, i'm proud of my lil brother when i looked at

him, marching with the others, hohoho, hopes he

does not read this, well if you do, congratulations!

yeah, going to the zoo tomorrow with cousin, hope

my photography mood will be one tomorrow or else

i'll be siting at the corner, crying, HAHAHA, kecoh pe

someday i'll be gone but not for too long.

2009-11-05T20:14:00.004+08:00

did not ride to work today due to the wet

and bad weather, so going public transport

was my only choice, paid 60cents for my bus

fare but the driver said it was $1, ended up

i put another $1, total $1.60 because i was

too lazy to search for 40cents, HAHAHAHA!

not only that, the ezlink machine did not

accept the new ezlink card, so testing my

patience early morning but on a brighter side

i got seat all the way to work, super great!

although danial is such an asshole,oops, well at

least he figured out how to create a wireless

access since they shut the internet access, it

was fun 'hacking' into the wireless and renamed

it as MilkTeaCOMM, praying hard they will not

know about it and take away the broadband or

else life is so going to be miserable, no way !!

i'm trying not to tell you but i want to

i'm scared of what you will say

2009-11-04T20:59:00.007+08:00

.awesome japanese movie.

another long day at work, no internet access

as usual, journey to work wasnt smooth, heavy

jam towards stevens road, how i wish there is

a lane for only motorbikes so that we riders

dont have to squeeze in between, it does freak

me out to squeeze in between because cars dont

really give signal when changing lanes, stupid!

upon reaching work, had my sleep since there

is no internet access, listened to my mp3 as i

slept till lunch break, had burger king for lunch,

i was still full from yesterday dinner that i only

ate the fries and the BK burger is still in my beg

as usual, every wednesday, off to school to fetch

nur fatihah ab aziz, off to have dinner with mr

helmi and mr muntazar, not to forget nur fatihah

at mr teh tarik jurong west, after dinner, i threw

up, there goes my money, sedih pe, sigh sigh !!

im so not looking forward to work tomorrow

2009-11-03T19:46:00.005+08:00

i'm so hating my day today especially at work

journey to work wasnt that smooth as usual,

how i wish work was just a few blocks away

i'm starting to hate attachment life, i'm away

from my friends, my close friends, hardly has

time for myself, no more hangouts, missed all

my late night tv programmes, how i wish time

could just slow down and i can enjoy those

beautiful view i've been missing alot lately

5 more weeks and sayonara to attachment

but sadly there will be no internet access

till we 'graduate' from there, they somehow

shut the internet access, so heartless la kan

i wonder if everyone has lost my numbers

because i hardly get any message or calls

not even half a day, tanam sudah handphone

2009-11-02T19:31:00.004+08:00

31 october 2009

cousin's solemnization at woodlands, sadly i did

not bring 'boyfriend' along as brother brought it

to his camp, freaking pissed off okay, so stayed

till night but i was glad mun was willing to come

to woodlands to slack with me, at least there is

someone to be there when i'm so freaking bored

01 november 2009

cousin's marriage ceremony, was glad cousin lend

his nikon since brother was using it for his outing &

i managed to get some tips from the photographer

it was okay, i just learnt abt the +/- exposure thingy

02 november 2009

i woke up and was glad it's finally november, at last!

attachment is so going to end soon, i aint going to miss

my attachments at all except that i have this irritating

working partner, muhammad danial, oops! sorry danial

today work was freaking bored, the technicians somehow

shutdown the internet server for dont know why, pissed

off okay, kenapa la dorang dengki sangat eh? merepek doh

so we spent our time watching movies on laptop, boring!

.40 more days.

2009-10-30T20:59:00.004+08:00

journey to work today was super sleepy, i was

like forcing myself to focus on the road but the

sun kept shining right into my eyes and it does

made me sleepy while riding okay, sleepyhead

upon reaching work, discovered the plug we used

to connect our internet was down, so that means

we cant online but i'm lucky there are movies in my

laptop so we did a file sharing and watched movie

off to ubi for some work, did configurations on the

IP phone, it was easy and fun, but the server room

was killing me, it was freezing cold, yes, freezing!

before that, we went ubi by bike and we somehow

get lost but thanks to danial, we reached the place,

talking about bike, well my bike stall in the middle of

a two-way road, sungguh malu, had to push my bike

to the side and kicked start once again, kecoh pe doh

if you are happy and you know it, think again.

2009-10-28T20:17:00.015+08:00

24 october 2009

went bukit merah to teman gila gf to settle some bike

stuffs, breakfast at macdonald was kecoh especially me

as i was too engrossed with the macdonald monopoly

game thingy, friends, dont throw away the stickers okay

off to ridout tea garden, and oh my god, it was beautiful

and relaxing, there are 24 hours macdonald and a tortoise

pond just beside the macdonald, no photos, deleted, oh great

off to cousin's birthday party after that, sungguh kecoh

let the picture do the talking okay. ok photo, talk!

25 october 2009

slacked at grandma's house with family,mama & arif, watched

GEGEBO, a funny malay scary prank show, should watched it ok

dinner at mr.teh tarik as it was cousin's birthday and he wanted

to treat us, pity aint photos of the feast as we were too hungry

26 october 2009

went to work by public, dont know why out of sudden i dont

feel like riding to work, well the best thing in taking public is

i can sleep & i can even sleep while standing okay, kecoh pe !

work was okay, managed to learn how to configure an IP phone

shall not elaborate more because you wont understand, cheeey

27 october 2009

we went to ubi to this company called, ASTRATA, we did the what we

learnt yesterday and it was fun plus the server room was freezing

cold okay, really freezing cold, no kidding, whole day at ubi

28 october 2009

was told yesterday we will be going ubi so we decided not to bring

our laptop to work, we came to work early as we were looking forward

to work at ubi, but 1 hour later after reaching work, we discovered

that we aint going to ubi so today it felt like 1st day at work, no

jobs were given and so we did the usual thing, sleep, sleep and sleep

i'm so missing school okay.

6 weeks and 3 days more, sayonara MQCOMMS !

2009-10-21T20:49:00.007+08:00

okay i'm getting sleepy now, a quick update okay

my morning wasnt smooth especially when i rode

to work today, as usual, massive traffice near the

stevens road exit, i had to be so extra careful but

today i nearly hit a car, i was just 1cm away, it was

a close shave okay, not only that, my X1 is cacat la!

when i speed, my front tyre will wobble and when i

slow down, it starts to feel bumpy, argh, stupid la !

my X1 do need another operation soon or else, bang!

work was okay, as usual just that today was freaking

bored as other than msn, facebook, youtube, twitter,

i have no more website to go, bored la, argh, imagine

2 months to suffer like this, oh no, i'm going insane!!

lunch was okay, best lunch ever since the last 9 days

of attachment, i had a proper lunch today, hahahaha

had mee hongkong for lunch and oh my god, delicious

after lunch, someone pissed me off real bad, aint got

the mood to talk about it, bodoh nye gemuk, kau pikir

ane nye besar nak berbual macam gitu, go and die la !!

but after seeing my gila gf, i'm back to myself, cheeeey

fetched her from taekwondo training and it's only like

less than 30 minutes away from work but depends on the

speed my bike can go la, it was nice to get to meet her

so i'll guess every wednesday we will be meeting ah ni !

take a peek on my tumblr okay

2009-10-20T20:28:00.005+08:00

miss them

http://broken-smile.tumblr.com/

2nd day of 2nd week of attachment

today journey to work wasnt that great, after the ERP

gantry, there were massive traffic jams on the left lane

which i'm always ride on, so i was praying hard i will

not meet with any accidents because i'm afraid to squeeze

through cars at expressway and i'm glad i reached work

safely but muhammad danial was late as usual !! argh !!

was given a little work by one of the technicians, we

were multi-tasking, doing the work and at the same

time, facebook-ing, msn-ing and such, haha! steady la !

lunch was different today, we had KFC for lunch but this

time with our colleagues, named catherine and joyce !!

watched gaki no tsukai on youtube and i was laughing out

loud in the office, the show is super funny okay, cant hold

on to my laughters that danial decided to join and laughed

~~rather lie than tell the truth~~

2009-10-19T21:16:00.007+08:00

2nd week of attachment

decided to ride to work today after dad showed me

the way yesterday, it's easy as ABC la seh, all the way

PIE, but the bad thing is, i have to enter ERP gantry

imagine 2 months entering ERP and topping up the bike

oh my god it cost alot of money and my wages are not

that high, haiyo! troublesome la ! bikin gua panas je!

yesterday i did tweet i was not looking forward to work

but my day today wasnt that bad afterall, seriously great

lunch hour was awesome, decided to have lunch at NYP as

muhammad danial wanted to meet his gf and he took the

opportunity since i brought along my X1 to work, urgh !!

journey to lunch was okay, we followed the route we saw

at the google maps online and we reached safely but the

journey back home was so freaking funny and kecoh gila !!

we had some dont-try-this-only-hanis-can parts, it was funny

i cant elaborate here because it's hard to explain so as usual

after lunch, it was treat-the-office-like-your-own, watched

gaki no tsukai on youtube and we were laughing out loud in

the office, but we managed to adjust our laughters level la !!

~~i'm really sorry. i would rather lie than telling you the truth.~~

http://broken-smile.tumblr.com/

2009-10-14T20:55:00.004+08:00

3rd day of attachment

seriously was not looking forward for work today,

as soon as mum woke me up for work, i was like

oh not again, i'm too tired but still i had to go ok !

i was glad mezan messaged me while i was on the

way to work, at least someone is there to entertain

me early morning, once again, we were kinda early

for work so dropped by burger king and macdonald

for breakfast take-away, did try danial's BK breakfast

and oh my god, it is so delicious okay, super yummy

was given 2 hours of lunchtime, we decided to have

our lunch at bishan, had long john silver and its super

kenyang okay but i finished it up okay, bought word

search book to entertain myself after lunch and guess

what danial, my working partner used the computer the

whole day, sungguh tak fair okay muhammad danial !!

~~those words should be left unspoken~~

2009-10-13T20:03:00.005+08:00

2nd day of attachment

i'm glad i went to toa payoh by the green line, i was

seated all the way but danial was late once again !!!

as we were too early, i decided to grab the $2.50

macdonald meal & i was so sleepy that i agreed in

getting the free coffee when the cashier offered me

for your info, i dont drink coffee! sungguh merepek !

once again, we had to wait for 1 hour before tasks

were given and that wasted hour, we used it as our

sleeping sessions, today danial had to follow the men

to botanic garden to do some labelling? left me alone

in the office doing the tasks i was given and it made

my fingertips hurts so bad, painful sia ! plasters !!!!!

i had to remove the telephone casing with my short

nails, ended up injured my left index fingertip, great

let the picture do the talking okay people, enjoy !

60 boxes in total. i did it all alone.

after lunch, once again, they wasted our time but today

it was 3 hours, suka, buang masa kita? the collegues there

had no idea what is our attachment about and it's already

the 2nd day of attachment and the we had not yet met

the boss, merepek ah tu company, buang masa aku je !

i need strength. i'm at the verge of giving up.

2009-10-12T20:34:00.003+08:00

1st day of attachment pissed me off real bad !!!

9am-10am, waited for someone to give instructions

but no one brief us on what we should do but lucky

we were patient about it, then came a guy named

steven, asking us to remove all the used wires from

the given equipments, it was fun especially having

danial as my working partner, chey, lu kecoh ah jack

1pm-2pm, we went for lunch, decided to go burger king

instead but too bad i did not finish up my BK chicken !!!

2pm-6pm, we were not given any instructions so we

waited and decided to do some videos to entertain

ourselves, enjoy the videos we made okay for you !!!

but seriously i'm so pissed off they wasted our 4 hours

they should told us they dont have anything for us so

that we can just leave and come back tomorrow, urgh

merepek ah MQ Company.

2009-10-09T20:34:00.007+08:00

ARGH I'M SO NOT IN A GOOD MOOOD!

everyone in the house is so feeling moody & i have

to become the victim, tak bersalah pun kene marah

merepek seh semua. geram nye aku ! bikin gua panas

okay enough about them, well spent my day at lysa's

crib, lagi mulia keluar rumah la seh, bought double

chocolate and oh my god, heaven la seh, sedap doh

had sambal udang and ayam goreng for lunch, sedap pe

sambal udang dimasak oleh cik mia, pedas and soft okay

after lunch, we spent our time camwhore-ing using my

laptop's webcam, so let the pictures do the talking okay

more photos please view in my FB okay (:

VERSUS

~~will you catch me if i fall ?~~

2009-10-07T20:28:00.007+08:00

went to JB yesterday with dad and cousin lysa, my

X1 folk were having problem so JB was what dad

suggested which i hated, told myself not to go JB

again as i dont quite like the road there, merepek !

we were lucky we had relatives at JB so while waiting

for my X1 to get serviced, we dropped by their house

& guess what i had to ride on the JB's bike, oh my god

the only thing i like about it was the bike was auto, no

clutch lever, superb but it was not nice to ride on okay !

today

as usual, every wednesday, had my taekwondo training &

today was my last training before i starts my attachment,

very the sad liao, no more bullying(s), jokes and laughters !

but i injured my right ankle and now it looks blue-black !!!

been putting ice packs and woooo, it's freezing cold okay !

so after training, went to lunch and movie with gila gf plus

helmi & mun (wonders what is his real name, any idea?) LOL

watched the movie FAME, and oh my god, it was awesome

and guess what, in that cinema we were in, there were only

four of us, yes, four of us in a big big room, so camwhored !

let the picture do the talking okay

~~if i gave you my heart, would you just play the part~~

~~and tell me it is the start of something beautiful.~~

2009-10-05T12:47:00.010+08:00

Jurong West Meets Kanye West

3rd October 2009

raya outing with the ITE cliques, this year dress

code was black and white, it don't matter if you

are black or white, said Michael Jackson, whoo!

everything went as planned but the girls had a hard

time because blisters came to visit, plasters was our

best friend on that day & weather was kind to us !!!

let the pictures do the talking okay

today

i should be joining my other cliques for raya outing but

i was too lazy, tired and my 5N2 classmates are coming

over for raya but i'm still waiting for the cliques to call

me once they reach jurong so that i can join them later

met up with future sis-in-law, gave her a clear visor and

sent her to BDDC for her first motor practical, good luck &

i was stop by the traffic police outside BBDC, i was glad

i brought along my driving license, IC & insurance paper !!

~~I don't wanna know what I know to be true,~~

~~What I need you to do, tell me another lie~~

2009-10-03T08:32:00.008+08:00

1st day raya was awesome as usual but this year

was different and special, three DSLR was used

two nikon and one canon, it was happening okay

not only that, this year family and i were riding

during our raya outing, it was awesome okay !!

every wednesday was taekwondo training & i was

glad there was training this school holidays or else

i will be rotting at home, taekwondo grading wasnt

that great, i screwed up but hoping i can get a pass

but the best part i'll get to hang out with my gila gf

yesterday something bad happend to me but i dont

know if it is hilarious or you should take it seriously

you decide after reading my story okay, i was on the

way back home from JB with parents, i was riding at

the speed of 80km/h as my front tyre was slanted more

to the left due to some reason & suddenly my box flew

off from my bike in the middle of expressway but dad

managed to retrive it back and glad he was safe, thanks

hei pujaan hati, apa khabarmu

ku harap kau baik-baik saja

2009-09-17T20:10:00.005+08:00

went to bukit batok once again, this week i went

to bukit batok thrice, sometimes i hate the fact

that i own my own transport because family had

been using it to ask me to run their errands, urgh

3 more days to hari raya, as raya is nearing, i'm so

freaking lazy to continue fasting, 3 more days and

no more starvation, i wonder if i lose any weight

during this fasting month, this year fasting month

had not been great for me, i was sick but i'm okay

yesterday

10am, had our taekwondo training, it was okay but

not many students turned up for training, i wonder

why, learned some skills on how to defence yourself

& i ended up with a bruised knee, painful you know

dropped by lysa's crib to help out with the bakings but

by the time i reached, her mum was done with it, so

lysa and i decided to do a photoshoot which i HAD to

be the model, FYI, i prefer to be behind the camera

taking pictures instead of being IN the camera, hohoho

then let me be your guardian angel.

2009-09-15T20:09:00.004+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday Nur Fatihah Ab Aziz

went to lysa's crib to help out with the raya pastries

but due to time constraint, i helped a little as i had

to rush back home to help prepare for the break fast

the smell of the biskuits that aunt made was tempting

how i wish fasting month was over at that moment !!

i was more into laptop than helping out, cheey! haha !

5 more days to go, ketupat ! i'm so going to eat you !

yesterday

meet up sessions with my kecohrables, break fast at the

harbourfront pizza hut, at the same time celebrating an

advance birthday for nur fatihah, had a little suprise for

her and sorry you have to finish the dessert up eventhough

you are already full from eating lasagne and pizza! bluek!

brought along my boyfriend and everyone seems to like him

we camwhored and time seems to move fast as we were

having so much fun, but most importantly birthday girl had

fun right? hope you cherish our moments together okay !!

~~i thought that i had everything~~

~~i didn't know what life could bring~~

~~but now i see . . .~~

2009-09-14T09:57:00.010+08:00

i've been wanting you since the time my eyes

fall for you, i know you want me too but i had

my reasons for rejecting you back then, i had

no choice, dad wasnt giving his blessings at all

i was heartbroken and since then everywhere

i went, i saw you but you just stood still and it

hurts me even more, i avoid places that i know

you will be right there waiting for me but i just

kept going to you, told myself i have to forget

you no matter what but your image just kept

playing in my mind, it is hard to just forget you

then with the help of brother, he tried his best

to bring us together eventhough mum & dad was

not happy with us being together, so yesterday i

brought him back to meet parents, well at first

mum was not happy with him but as soon i show

her the good side of him, mum slowly likes him

oh i love you, nikon d3000

sneak peak of our raya clothes

sorry for the bad quality

its from laptop's webcam

~~honestly, do i stand a chance with you?~~

2009-09-10T19:34:00.003+08:00

090909

break fast outing with 4 ex secondary classmates

and mdm shafiee at jurong point KFC, we sat there

for like 2 hours, chatting and joking non-stop! heard

boonlayians are getting bad to worse, gangsterism !

since mdm shafiee's friend was driving and i was riding,

we decided to drop by jurong hill for chit-chat sessions,

the night view was awesome, but going up the hill with

my type of bike, it was kinda slow and boring la seh !!

today

had a cup of plain water for morning sahur and ended

up with a empty stomach resulting in vomitting at 8am

there goes my fasting, told mum i cant fast today as my

stomach was too weak to fast, and the worst part i ate

my medicine before siting for my exam today, which

made me so drowsy that i lost focus and slept every few

minutes, ended up not doing most of the questions !!!

believe me, as soon as i saw the ferris wheel while we

were going to suntec city, i was smiling to myself, it was

my first time entering town area by bike, i was so happy

that i cant stop telling gila gf how excited i was, haha !

but we had trouble finding the suntec conventional hall

carpark that we did 2 rounds at the rounabout, a u-turn

after we realise we are leaving suntec area, panic sia !

the amazing part is, without asking more about the ipod

touch specifications, gila gf bought it on the spot after

asking for the price, isnt she great?! suka ah tu dah beli !

went to sim lim to look for nikon dslr with cousins, kecoh

kape, went to every shops to look for nikon d60 and only

one shop sells it and we got a good bargain but pity cousin

did not bring enough money, aiseyman! right now brother

and i are discussing which nikon dslr we going to buy for

this year raya, i'm willing to share half of the price okay !

nikon d60

nikon d3000

i aint mad. just disappointed. things dont always

go as planned but there is always next time !

2009-09-08T20:29:00.004+08:00

Weak. Giddy. Nausea.

woke up for morning break fast at 5am, stayed up

to study till 8am, had a 40 minutes sleep, woke up

feeling giddy, rushed to school for web applications

examination, browsed through the questions and it

came out almost the same as the last year papers !!

it was manageable, hoping to score high for it, stayed

in school for some system administation revision but

ended up i did not revise a single thing, aint got mood

fetched annafi from work, we went the long way back

home as it was too early for him, he then decided to

accompany me to buy DVD, thanks annafi, sent him home

the best part he stay near my area, anytime can lepak !

aunt break fast with family today, she bought 6 packets

of chicken rice and kuih-muih, as soon i finished my food,

i vomitted it all out, yes ALL out! thanks stomach/intestine

or whatever you call it, thanks for making my life so urgh!

miserable! it hurts soo much! but i'm glad best friend is

always there for me, thank you 100 plus ! love you la !!

one paper done. one more to do. jiayou!

~~God, please blessed the broken road that led me straight to you.~~

2009-09-07T21:15:00.003+08:00

okay im taking a break from studying right now,

my back hurts, been siting on the floor and using

a small table to study, so went to school for extra

class for tomorrow exam, web applications !!

managed to revise some of the most important

things that really need to know, thanks maverick

for asking me to try and write the answer on the

whiteboard, that way i know where my mistakes

are and thanks mezan for coming to school too (:

saw a terrible incident at the AYE today while was

on the way home from school, a big tree fell and

hit a few cars on the right lane, i'm so lucky i was

not at the AYE yet when it happened, thank god !

okay i just rejected a nikon D80 which i bargained

for 500 bucks which the seller is selling off at 650

bucks, well i had my reason, firstly dad just remind

me of my motor insurance money, urgh, sorry ayul

oh great, i vomited once again today, it hurts so bad

that i felt giddy after the vomitting process, i'm so

hoping tomorrow the vomiting process wont happen

when i'm sitting for my web applications paper, no !

kecohrables, 14 September 2009 buka luar okay !

" i miss my kecik sleng!!" - Nur Fatihah <3

2009-09-04T20:16:00.005+08:00

oh great i just vomitted a few minutes ago

stomach/intestines whatever it is, stop it ok,

you are hurting me, it hurts real bad! urgh!

went to the doctor today with mum, believe

me, i was scared to see the doctor with this

condition of mine, after i google search about

my condition, i'm scared it might be true so i

told mum if i can do a whole body checkup as

in blood test but mum said for now i'll just had

to tell doctor what i experienced this few days

doctor is not that sure what am i suffering from

but for now it might be an intestine infection,

as in germs, so people wash your hand before

and after eating, germs are everywhere and are

easily spread, and dont worry, i'll take care ok

oh great this sunday parents are going to break

fast at JB with their friends, lil brother is going

to break fast at the mosque and as for me, i have

no idea where i'm going to break fast, great !!

watching syurga cinta movie really opened up

my heart, did told myself to taubat but i dont

know why i cant seem to do it, why is it so hard

for me and with this condition of mine, is it time

for me to really change for a better person before

it is too late, oh god, please guide me! please!!

~~i've been wanting to tell you something but~~

~~it is best to tell you when the time is right~~

2009-09-03T07:38:00.003+08:00

taking a break from studying, been studying

since my sahur, been rushing both practical

and theory notes, was disappointed that i had

to retake my phase test today because i failed

i'm so hoping the best for today class test and

phase test, focus hanis ! you can do it ! i do

need some encouragements here ! anyone ??!

so yesterday break fast with none other my gila

gf of mine at Jurong East Swimming Complex KFC,

had our usual student's meal but this time, i was

disappointed with myself as i could not finish my

meal, my zinger burger isnt even half and i did

not even clear my favourite cheese fries instead

i vomitted all out, there goes my $6 student's meal

sorry gila gf that you have to see me in this worst

conditions thrice but i promise you that i'm going to

see the doctor soon and hoping it will not be that

serious which i expected it to be after discovering

i had most of the illness symptoms. scary pe !! !!

stay tuned to hear the good/bad news from doctor

i have only less than an hour to study. ciao

signing out ; 0759hrs

2009-08-31T06:43:00.004+08:00

this song is dedicated to dad

i dont know why suddenly i'm feeling so

emotional, thinking about how i've been

treating dad all this while, i just want to

say i am really thankful to have dad in my

life all this while, i know i've been acting

cold towards him ever since i grew up,

thinking about what mum had said a few

months or years back really opened up

my heart, i will never ever forget what

mum told me, all those stuffs dad had been

doing for me, remembering all my favourite

food and drinks, bought me a bike 4 days

after i passed my traffic police test, believe

me dad cares more about me than anyone

else in the family so that is why i'm so

disappointed with myself for treating dad

in a way a daughter should not be treating

dad if you come across this post one day, i'm

really sorry for treating you in a such manner,

and i am really thankful for all those things you

had done for me ever since i grew up ! ):

singing off ; 7:19am

2009-08-29T19:58:00.008+08:00

i'm glad brother brought back his laptop yesterday

plan today was to go to the library and study but

i was too lazy to get out of the house and by the

time i reach the library, there will be no more plug

for me to use for my laptop, so studied at home

at first i was really into studying, searched every

possible website for informations but then cousin

lysa started to webcam with me and there goes

my semangat nak belajar, then dad caught me

smiling to myself while using the laptop, thanks

to my gila gf, told dad i was webcam-ing with

cousin lysa and guess what, dad & mum joined in

dad : *waves to cousin*

cousin : *did not wave back, internet slow*

dad : why nvr wave back? they cannot see me?

a few seconds later

cousin : *waves back*

dad : *keeps waving*

dad was excited okay, it was his first time, aiseyman

after that i managed to continue studying but i was

too tired that i decided to help mum in the kitchen

had mum's roti john for break-fast today, delicious !!

& i like my hair today, macam zac efron ! *winks*

~~sing your melody & i'll sing along~~

2009-08-27T20:06:00.009+08:00

tuesday, thursday, saturday

8pm-9pm

those are the days i will be online, dad's rules

so pathetic sia use computer for 1 hour but

who cares, i will be using computer while i'm

in school so people, talk to me whenever

you see me online okay, time is precious !!

one project done, two more to go

31 August 2009 - Monday
System Administration Practical Assignment

2 September 2009

System Administration Phase Test

3 September 2009
System Administration Class Test

8 September 2009
Web Applications Exam

10 September 2009
System Administration Exam

CONGRATULATIONS TO FATIHAH & FAHMI
FOR PASSING THEIR TRAFFIC POLICE TEST

~~.be who i am.~~

2009-08-23T20:18:00.005+08:00

1st day of fasting

the feeling of waking up as early as 5am for

our early breakfast is so tiring and sleepy ok

not only that, eating the same food almost

every morning is not cool okay, tapi 1st week

je semangat bangun sahur, lepas tu tk bangun

sahur, minum milo dah kenyang, cheeeeyy !

as usual, first day of fasting will be breaking

fast at grandma's house, macam biasa, kecoh

especially our eldest aunt,sungguh the kecoh

the best part, i raced back home with brother

but the feeling of speeding is so not great okay

scary oi, but i felt excited at the same time la

2nd day of fasting

had the same food for breakfast as yesterday !!

went off to bbdc to accompany my gila gf, then

off to lepak with the takraw boys while waiting

for gila gf to finish her revision circuit, the boys

went to wash their bikes while i went to fetch

gila gf and off to meet another gila gf at clementi

upon reaching home, had my sleep, sungguh best !

had roti kirai for break-fast today and as usual, lepas

buka, berak, best pe, nanti lapar lagi, mampos !!

all the best for your TP tomorrow my gila gf !!

~~i just gotta say it~~

~~just so you know~~

2009-08-20T20:45:00.005+08:00

had a long & tiring day today, no kidding

fetched none other my gila-s.l.o.w-tk-betol-nya gf

and off to school together, oh ya thanks for the

chicken pie treat which i still have not eat yet !

school was okay, lunch was okay too, had my last

chicken cutlet in school today as fasting month is

coming, two more days, makan puas-puas la seh !

played the game hotel 626 at mezan's lappy, seram

pe especially the phototaking in the toilet, scary !!

the best part of today was, like finally i get to play

takraw with the boys and gila gf, it was funny, more

laughters than kicking, i used to follow dad whenever

he played takraw so at least i knew how to play okay

met up with mr sparks and mr rxz, had our mcflurry

and double chocolate sessions, slacked till 7.15pm &

off to send gila gf home, lu kecoh ah gf, step malu !!

~~i wish i could make it go away~~

~~fighting the bad feeling~~

siti nur hanis bte hosni

2009-08-19T21:14:00.004+08:00

many things happened today in just one day

morning, had my practical assignment 4, as

usual, i panicked awhile, this time it was

tough okay, but i managed to do most of it

lunch today was okay, played badminton with

the boys before going for the next class and oh

my god my wrist area bruised, kes tk tahu nak

pegang racket, kan dh bruised lagi, bodoh ah nis

after school, went down to bukit batok to meet

up with cousins and dunearn cliques, best pe ader

fight, aku macam biasa jugak, step fierce, bila dah

gaduh, police dah tron, gua cabot dulu la seh, haha

fetched brendon from bbdc and off to school for

taekwondo training, haiyak ! today cca was fun

except that sir kept bullying me, muhammad tng pe!

anak president, it's sad to see you like that but i hope

your kegilaaness will come back soon okay, love you

when can i see you again?

macam racer tak?

2009-08-14T09:16:00.007+08:00

12 august - wednesday

the day i wont forget, my X1 perangai

while lysa's love were playing with my

bike, the clutch cable putus suddenly,

of course i was freaking mad but i'm glad

no one was injured, decided to call none

other my motor genius friend, aman for

help and i was so thankful he came ok !

with the help of lysa's friends and aman,

we did an operation on my X1, it was

easy to open the body of my X1 but to

put it all back, it was so difficult okay !

so i would like to thanks ayulysa, lysa's

friends and especially aman for the help

slacked with them after everything was

okay and thanks lysa for the pizza treat

plus we saw cats fucking one another !!

13 august - thursday

i was early okay for school because was

told there will be a class test, woke up

30minutes earlier than usual to study but

i was studying with my eyes closed !!!!

and the class test was freaking easy la

seh, a few days ago, teacher told us on

what to really study and damn it came

out, everything okay ! confirm pass ok !

skipped my last lesson and slacked with

the attachment cliques at the library

playing uno, hope parents or anyone who

is related to my family wont came across this

and tell them about it or else i'm dead !

anak president kene escort balik rumah

naik motor X1 la seh, so honour okay !

2009-08-09T19:38:00.004+08:00

Happy 44th Birthday Singapore

We, the citizens of Singapore

pledge ourselves as one united people,

regardless of race, language or religion,

to build a democratic society,

based on justice and equality,

so as to achieve happiness,

prosperity and progress for our nation.

as usual, had my national day celebrations at

home with family, decided to reject those

outings my friends offered as dad wasnt in a

good mood, basically because house is still in

a mess after the fire incident, old things are

being replaced with the new ones, so that

explains the mess around the house but glad

everything is back to normal for now i guess

watched the 1st part of the NDP 2009 on TV

and it was awesome, suhaimi and mark lee

was hilarious, i just loves the sang nila utama

version of theirs, so very the funny la kan !!

dad was so jakun about this year NDP, and

when the terrorists act was being shown,

dad disagreed with the act because he thinks

the act will make the terrorists mad and plan

the exact scene so mum had to tell him it was

just an act and dont worry, the singapore forces

will be ready when it does happen but still dad

disagree with it, whatever la dad ! haiya !

will be meeting the boys for the video shooting

tomorrow as the video we did the last time was

rejected, so leceh! haiya, anyone with no plans

tomorrow, want to tag along? we do need actors,

actresses or even calefares! but no allowance lor

~~Aku tak bisa melihat kau bersamanya~~

2009-08-07T20:11:00.004+08:00

it's friday. no school for me as usual but

today was the national day celebration

which i dont even care much about it as

i knew it wont be fun celebrating it in

my current school right now, haiz

so decided to go and watch movie with

none other my gila-tk-betol-nya girlfriend

watch G.I JOE, we managed to smuggle in

26 pieces of nuggets, large fries & large

coke from macdonald which only cost us

$13, isnt it worth it? kenyang babe ! ! ! !

& oh my god, golden village jurong point

is so freaking rich today as there were a

long queue, 'polluted' with students as school

are having half day today, talking about

school, oh i missed those times i had with

my secondary 5 mates during the national

day celebrations, we were so patriotic but

too bad we did not win the 1st prize but

i'm glad we were united and enjoyed that

very last moments, oh i'm missing you all

i'm so going to hate tomorrow because

family and i will be going to GEYLANG!

if i'm not wrong, we will be looking for

our raya clothes, that is always our routine

before fasting month because we aint

going out looking and buy for raya clothes

during fasting months, it will be chaotic

and tiring, sungguh the bosan lor but the

best part is we will be riding there, no

long train rides, no pushing and more !!

~~what hurts the most is being so close~~

2009-08-05T20:22:00.004+08:00

school was okay. had networking phase test

it was easy at first but when it comes to the

part which i can log in with the users i created

i went panicked! but thanks to mr gremar, i

managed to finish up the phase test! woohoo!

received a bad news from gila gf, one of our

classmate commited suicide yesterday, he is

not the kind who will do that but there must

a reason for him to do such a move, rest in

peace thomson, going to miss those times we

had while we were still classmates, although

we seldom talk, you are a nice guy, RIP ):

dedicated to you, mr thomson

taekwondo training today was super hilarious

but painful, glad today training wasnt that tough

well because i was injured so i dont have to

train! kwang kwang kwang, but seeing the rest

doing the training makes my day today, sungguh

kekek la korang kene lompat2, macam monyet

hope my blister will be fine by tomorrow or i

will be having a hard time changing gears, worst

come to worst, i will be taking bus to school

tomorrow, pathetic kape ! nur fatihah, get well

soon, esok hari cacat, jom kita jalan tempang

tapi your case, kene wheelchair la seh ! bluek

2009-08-04T19:56:00.004+08:00

Pengumuman-pengumuman

Siapa yang mau bantu

Tolong aku kasihani aku

Tolong carikan diriku kekasih hatiku

Siapa yang mau

school was great today, well maybe because

i was extremely happy yesterday that i brought

my happiness to school today and glad no one

spoils it, how great can it be when you make

friends with a stranger from the net and in the

end you discovered you and that someone is

somehow related, dont you feel shocked and

at the same time feel so excited ? haha !! !! !

okay my house looks new now but i aint loving

the new color paint, it is somehow like the color

of a green apple, well maybe because i'm used to

the previous color and i'm trying to get used to

this new color paint, so pandan leave, adoi !!

pictures of the new paint will upload soon ok

everything are back to its own place, i can sleep

in the living room once again, oh great but the

fresh paint smell is so making me feel so unwell

okay tomorrow there will be phase test and i'm

so going to screw it up, but i'll try my best to do

what i can, and dateline for assignment 5 is 2morrow

and i have not even start it, so how? anyone? help?

~~hoping to see you again & hang out together~~

2009-08-03T20:06:00.006+08:00

house kitchen on fire

i was bathing while lil brother was told

to cook some chickens for dad, both of

our parents aint at home, after switching

on the fire, lil brother went to use the

computer, leaving the oil unattended !

3 mins later, the fire was damn big and

fierce, lil brother shouted and to my so

'selengeness' i thgt he was fooling me !

so i continued bathing and upon hearing

he cried, i knew it was true, so i was so

panicked that i went to my neighbour's

house, body wrapped with towel and just

in time to wear my shorts, so in short i was

half-naked when i ran for my life ! haha

1st august

outing with the kecohrables, was damn

happy that we managed to meet up after

many days of not meeting due to their

attachment, lunch at sakura far east and

thanks saiful for chipping it more, biasa la

gaji dah masuk, belanja katekan, haha !

went to ION and there aint much to see,

slacked at mccafe for a chit-chat sessions

off to marina barrage for some fresh air

pity fatihah and i cant see the fireworks

as we had to be back home early and i'm

so freaking sad there aint photo of me alone

at marina barrage, rabak pe korang, sedih!

2nd august

Happy 8th Birthday Nur Insyirah!

cousin and i was the planners for the little

cute cousin of us, everything went great like

we wanted to, the people involved are so

supporting and thanks for making it happend!

pictures of the birthday will upload some

other days, more stories on it okay people

stay tuned people! keep tagging !!

2009-07-26T12:36:00.007+08:00

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